Happy Thanksgiving. (:

Happy thanksgiving everyone! I hope everyone has a good one. I know its a day early but who cares? Lol. I am in Hoschton? I think thats how you spell it. I am at my grandmothers like I said I would be, we are still waiting on the Murphy's to get here. 

 I am very thankful for the family and friends I now have. Thanks to everyone that has helped me throughout my life and caring for me. I love you deeply. (: <3
Comment if you want and tell me what your thankful for this year. I would love to hear about it. (:

Today was an okay day... I guess.

So this whole week we have off from school due to thanksgiving. I have been stuck at home with my family for days and I am getting a little irratated. I mean I love them and all but I really can't take being home with them all the time, its totally driving me insane. I am kinda taking it out on my mom, I have been disrespectful to her and I really don't like it. Im not doing it on purpose. I'm just going to try to be careful and pay attention to myself.

Today I also went to go get my hearing aids. They blend in pretty well and they fit comfortably, but everything is so loud or its too quiet when I try fixing the volume on them. I can hear everything now that I couldn't before and its strange, weird. We used my uncles truck and it totally freaked me out because I could hear everything. Totally freaked me out. I am so thankful that I have my mom. She has helped me through this even though I really haven't talked about it, I'm not really sure how I feel about it other than I wanted to hurry up and get it over with. Now that I have them I don't really care. Its like whatever to me. When I talk I can hear myself speak now. And to me I think I sound loud so I try to be quiter but when I was talking to my uncle he said that  I wasn't loud. So I'm going to have to work on that.

Tomorrow I am going to my nana's house for thanksgiving. We will be staying in her RV. Also we will be seeing the Murphy's. So excited. I love that family so much. (:

My brother is also coming home tomorrow. For good I believe. We have to wake up early to go get him and sit through this long meeting. I hate meetings. They are so boring, and long. I miss him and want him to come home at some point but I really don't think that I can put up with him right now. He's super annoying at times, like a normal child, but I am afraid that Patches and him will get each other pissed off and lose it. Something we don't need at the house. She has done good lately so maybe it will be fine. But I will always have my guard up. Listening and paying attention to what is going on.

Latey

So lately I have been good. I guess.... I can't remember if I told you guys about my house going up for sell but it has, I hope everything goes well for us and we wont have to move. I have made some "REAL" friends this year and I'm not surrounded with drama like I was before. I'm really proud of myself, and I have been working hard on becoming a better person. Not wanting to cause trouble, or looking for trouble. I really hate the feeling that something may happen and we have to move. I was made a promise that is looking like it wont be kept. I understand that it isn't their fault that it may go bad, but for once I'm happy with life. I'm enjoying it. There hasn't been anything with patches and my brother will be coming home shortly. I have the best of friends this year and I don't want everything to be ruined now. I'm just so extremely happy right now. Things don't need to go sour now. I'm having a little trouble in school but I'm working on making things better. I also found out that I get my hearing aids Tuesday.. Kinda excited but at the same time I'm nervous. I also talked to my aunt to talk to my uncle about assigning me to one of the people that work for him so I can go on calls and see what my life would be like being an officer. I wish you all a happy thanksgiving. And sorry that I have taken long to post again. (:

This weekend...

So this weekend was alright, I guess. Well Saturday was awesome ! It was my friends birthday, so we had a party and we also went to Netherworld. It was pretty awesome. I didn't want that night to end, I mean yes I was being I guess tortured? But I enjoyed it.

My sister threw a fit and had to call the cops again. Today she went to see her PO and now has 3 charges. She got mad over a picture she had drawn me that I didn't even know was mine. She was told to pick it up by someone who was doing their chore, she got mad and said she didn't need to pick it up because it wasn't hers. She refused to take her meds. and she tried to throw a bucket at my mom while the kids were behind her. She is extremely hard to be around and makes me want to be out of the house all the time. She said i have given up on her but i feel like she has given up on our relationship a long time ago. she doesn't care about me and I strongly believe that. I believe she doesn't really care about anyone but herself. Because if she did care she wont attack them with her fist or her words. She is going to have to work extremely hard before  even consider being around her. She never take responsibility for her actions, she thinks the stupidest scariest things are funny, and they are totally not funny at all.

Long time no Blog....

I'm terribly sorry that I haven't blogged lately. I really didn't have anything to post other than little high school things. Like my teacher cussing, or how there was this huge fight with this chick and dude. She threw a sprite can at him and hit his mouth and he started bleeding pretty badly. He didn't get in trouble though because the only thing he was doing was blocking her hits. It was horrible though because I was right there next to them and everyone wanted to see and get to the front so I was being pushed closer and closer which freaked me out. 


My ear is looking freaking awesome for those of you who care. I love it and the pain like I said was totally worth it. I am now able to sleep on the right side of my head now because it no longer hurts. Well it hurts right now because over the weekend my brother came for a visit ( he lives in a hospital) and he had accidentally thrown himself against me and it bleed and made a scab. But I totally love it and I am so happy I have it. Everyone at school loves it as well.


So you remember a while back when I had told you about the fake baby project for my early childhood development class? Well today I got my permission slip so we will be signing up very shortly. I am also very excited about that. (: 


I still have not got my hearing aids. But I should get them shortly I believe. Ill be happy when I actually get them and only have a yearly doctor appointment for them .


Also the people that own the house I am living in are trying to sell the house. Mom said they are looking for someone to sell the house to that will still rent to us. I hope this all works out so we don't have to move. I am already not doing good in school so if I have to move that will just be a big stress and take more time from school to catch up with the other school. But I have a feeling everything will be fine and work out just right. If not I will move in with a friend. Haha, yeah like that will ever happen or be a option. 

Saturday ! (:

So Saturday I went over to a family friend's house, we hung out for a little, grilled out and then she pierced my industrial. Boy did that hurt. When it was over I didn't believe it. The top part of it hurt so bad I didn't realize that she had already gotten the bottom through too. I had been waiting a long time to get this done and I'm super happy that I finally got it done. I didn't bother to think of the fact that I sleep on the side of my head I got it done. So now I am forcing myself to sleep on the left side which is super hard. I am just SO excited and happy that I have it done. (:

I'm so nervous my four year old sister is going to give me one of those aggressive hugs she gives when she is extremely excited, and he hair get caught on it and I tell her not to pull away and she doesn't listen and she totally pulls away and hurts the crap out of me. I'm so nervous to get it yanked on or touched. This morning I tried to dry my hair and I hit the bar and I almost cried and pasted out. That's how bad it hurt. Speaking of that let me back up a little to something I think was kinda funny when the piercing was going on. I was told to tell her if I started to feel sick to my stomach or like I was about to pass out, and at that point I was already at the point of feeling as if I was about to pass out so I told her I was already there before she had finished the sentence. 

I can't wait to get to school to show it off to all my friends. If anyone tries to touch it they need to think twice other wise they will be dealing with a passed out chick or vomit. One of the two, maybe even both. Who knows? Haha. (:

Yesterday's ENT Appointment

So yesterday I went to the ENT. I took the hearing test and the result where basically the same. I believe I heard that I shouldn't lose anymore. Also I had my ear molded. So I am now waiting on the hearing aids to be approved by medicade and within a month I should have my hearing aids.

I am so stressed out I have had migrane for two days. It won't go away no matter how much meds I take. I'm stressed out about school, and the hearing aids. I got a letter in the mail over the weekend saying that I have missed too many classes this semster and that in December I will have to sign up for waiver classes. I'm to happy about that but whatever I have to do to keep from being a freshman again or taking freshman classing again I will do.

I just hope that when I get the hearing aids that I'm not treated diffrently.